Friday, February 25, 2011

Melt Your Heart

We had decided to adopt again.
It was time to expand our family...
To double our love.

And just as we started to put ourselves out there
we got a phone call.
Rio's birth mother (our angel) was pregnant and wanted us again.
She was due February 24th.

It was as if the moon and stars had aligned once again
to bring this person back into our lives.
I feel like the skies open up and she appears in our lives.
As if we're connected somehow.

I mean, how bizarre is it that at the exact moment in time
when we were ready to adopt again
She's ready to give birth again -
surely to another divine being.

But it quickly went downhill.
A potential birth father decided to be full of pride.
And I get it.
She wants it all.
She wants the guy, the family, the stability, the life full of love.
I wish it for her every day.
It's just too bad it leaves us with a broken heart for what could have been.
But it was never ours to begin with.

"And we've lost the people we could have loved, and you...
It's bound to melt your heart."
                                      --Jenny Lewis